I spent a wonderful weekend catching up with old friends and I missed an outing with new friends. I am nervous that I will begin to be pushed out of that group and I know I sound stupid but I can’t stop wondering how it will be tomorrow at school. They are the ones that you have to push against a wall and yell “HEY YOU’RE IGNORING ME!” to even begin to notice that they are.

I don’t want my wonderful weekend to be turned into a memory I regret because I lost a monumental experience with my new friends. I hate feeling this way and I wish I could make it better or at least sort it out in my head but of course, that’s not the way my brain works.

We’ll see, I guess.